Hope all is well! Just wanted to send you all an update: This summer was my first summer playing rec league slow pitch softball SOBER. Let me tell you that this was quite the growth for me. Summer softball literally revolves around drinking and playing for most people. It’s just what it is.
All spring I was debating playing because all it did was bring up bad memories of my alcoholism. I loved to play but last summer was my complete downfall with my alcoholism and I was a complete wrecking ball during softball.
This summer was different…. much different. I was undecided up until the first game. I am a pitcher so several teams were recruiting me hard to play for them since my team last year had broken up. I was scared, nervous, you name it.
My best friend has been playing summer softball with me for 10 years and he told me DO NOT let this define me. Rise above and he would be by my side every step of the way.
I signed up to play on the same team and this team is notoriously good and they really don’t drink and play… mostly drink after the game is over.
Walking into the park for my first game – I was so nervous I thought I was going to pass out. But then, those feelings went away and I was overcome with gratitude. Grateful to be playing sober. Grateful to have such an amazing supportive friend. Grateful to be where I was. I didn’t even notice all of the drinking around me. It didn’t even phase me. I accepted that that was my past and now, I am in such a better place.
Last week our team WON THE CHAMPIONSHIP!!! I hit a home home run during the game, it rained, and at the end of the game the sun came out and there was a double rainbow. Such a God moment for me. A moment I will never forget. I just threw my glove down and cried tears of joy.
These are the moments I thank God that I am alive. These are the moments I am grateful for my sobriety, AA, and A Way Out. I consider myself the lucky one. One day at a time.